; unwritten

2005-06-14T06:26:00.000-07:00

went out with the Toots, excluding xiying. took lotsa pictures. went to lotsa places. super fun. fullstop. no mood to blog.

before..

in progress..

after ! tadaaaa ! :D

youve been on my mind, 24/7
when i dont even wna think abt you.
i will miss you much when im gone.
but i doubt you'll even knw im talking abt YOU*

you freaking ass ! im so cheesed off la ! i dont know why too. just stop thinking youre that great and that everybody loves you. i, for one, would not fawn all over you, at all. shitheadbaboooon ! i cant stand you la ! rawr. im leaving tmrw. im glad. no goodbyes ? hurr. fcuuk- off-

2005-06-12T07:11:00.000-07:00

today was the amazing g-race video ! whooots. those piggos, niki and ame ! tell me they couldnt make it this morning, made me soooo sad okay ! then later suddenly jesss came running to me and told me my friends were behind. i was like, what ?! then i turned back and i saw those two doodle-heads grinning just like original piggos away. HAHA. got them to seat with me in the end.

some one was in a happy mood today in the morn, smiling away, then dao-ing mood in the afternoon, dao-ing away again like usual :/ urgh. irritating.

okayokay. today was no different than any other sundays, except there were man chao-tar lobsters crawling around. TEEHEES. it was the normal service and stuff la. i could feel God's presence, shuddering and trying not to cry along the way. hahar. i guess there's still an empty hole in my heart im trying to ignore, thats why i kept feeling urges to burst into tears and sob like a babby into someone's arms. ohwells. revival during church camp ? i'll be waiting for that day till i can truly say, im happy :]

felt a little awkward today :( like caught between the middle ? didnt know how to go with both niki&ame and charms at the same time. but im really glad they came. though i was kinda disappointed niki and ame didnt accept Christ today, it's okay. i'll just keep trying and trying, though im really outta ideas on how to ! geee. AND AME EMBARASSED THE -CENSORED- OUTTA ME OKAY. hahaha. was sooooo super maluated okay. i mean, yeah ! super maluated ! she's one cranky-ass la, but i still love my wifey :D hahaha.

during youth, they only managed to show one video. went home and watched it with my parents while eating paos and drinking my lemon tea :D yumyumm ! teehees. it was not bad. BUT I STILL CANT BELIEVE I MADE SUCHA FOOL OUTTA MYSELF ON VIDEO OKAY. hahaha !

gooosh. one min i was poking my face into the camera and bleah-ing away. the next i was like jumping up and down, flapping my arms everywhere ?! the next i was like screaming my head off in the longkang. then later i was like doing some bobbing-fish thingaling ?! i didnt even know what that was okay ! then later i was laughing like some siao gina into the camera with a green face ? and last but not least, doing the CHICKEN DANCE ?! ohmygoodness. im retarded ! i really think i hafta go to the IMH.

my sexxaye mermaid daddie in bikiniiiiiiiiii ! you pokkers ! what salt water killing me !? hahaha. it heals my pimples okay :D so nice ! hehee. i think it's my yellow bucket killing you ! :D i miss your slippers :( oh, bytheway, do take care, drink lotsa water, and get lotsa rest ! hope youre flu will be healed soon :] see la ! naughty piggo. who asked you to like strip on the beach ! HAHA. huo-gai ! nehnehnipoopoo !

EMELINE DEAR ! soso sorry i cant make it to your birthday bbq ! i'll be in church camp. so sorry okay ? :( dont worry ! i'll get you a super huuuuuge presie when im away okay ? :D i love you loads ! -hugggs.

YOU* i think you can sense it. that my attitude towards you have changed. i dont know why too. im sorry. maybe i just need time to think it over. what we had, was it really real ? or was it only one-sided ? was it true, or was it just made up of lies ? if you really mean what you said, you'll wait.

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MY MUM JUST GOT BACK FROM THE 2 NEW NEIGHBOURS HOUSE ! :D gooooshh. i should have gone ! one family got like 3 daughters !? yaynesss ! :D one sec4, one sec2, one primayr6. whoooots !!! the other was an indian family. coool eh ? and their children has all grown up though :( ohweells. cant wait to get to know them better :]

this is sooo frigging coooool ! i have telepathy with niki ! :D HAHAHA. i mean, we were normally chatting, yadayadayada, then suddenly, she asked me, "you alright". and it was EXACTLY at that point when i suddenly became down after, erms, reading some things. yepp. so coool right ! mooohahaha !

2005-06-11T08:02:00.000-07:00

i was thinking when i heard this lyrics; im made by mistakes, got nowhere to run. and so i pray to God silently. Oh Lord, all the stupid mistakes ive done. i want to stat my life anew, i want to start my life afresh. i dont want to be haunted by guilt becos of my silly mistakes. with God's promsie that Jesus Christ's blood has washed away all our sins once we confess that He is God, from tmrw onwards, im gona lead a new life. all the silly mistakes, im gona put it behind me, and concentrate on leading a new, fresh life. no one is 100% perfect, so i'll try to be 99% perfect. and if i cant, i'll try to be 98% perfect and so onn. No more lies, no more frowns. no more tears, no more guilt. no more worries, no more anger. i can sense some change in me these few months or so. and i pray, that i'll keep changing, for the better :] amen.

2005-06-11T06:28:00.000-07:00

SENTOOOOSA :D i overslept and got up like 20mins late okay ! gosh, cant believe it ! hahaha. but i was stil on time. yaye ! took a mrt to harbour front to meet the rest. i like taking the mrt alone ! :D it's kinda, peaceful ? teehees. okay, so we took like a shutter bus to sentosa ! yippie ! while waiting and boarding the bus, it was like eternity kkay ! like it took forever till the bus started and brought us to sentosa ! reached there, bought tickets, yadayadayada. the usual stuffies. then we were at the beach ! :D

played captains ball. FUNFUNFUN. went off to walk with the girls then eunice, huishuan and i swam out to some platform okay ! tried to get on but there was moss EVERYWHERE. ohfrigginggross ! i didnt even KNOW there was moss till i felt something slimy and gooey under my hand. URGH. it was like everywhere ?!!! i feel super grossed out, i could puke okay ! ahhhhh ! okayokay, then later we went back to play captains ball again. some other church came to play with us. they were rough like dont know what kkay ! i was like pushed into the sand 2times ?! okayokay. forgetit. then the girls got fed up and we all went farfar away to kayak ! :D

whooolala. charms and i ABANDONED SHIP ! lol ! it was soooo silly ! we jumped off the kayak, and couldnt get on later ?! HAHA. like about 4-5 kayakers came arnd to help us ? they were so sweet :] holding the kayaks for us and pulling me back onto it. phew. i think i looked super funny when i got back on cos i was sooooo tired after all that struggling, i just laid down on the kayak face-flat ! hahaha ! plus, the life-jacket was soooo big, it was practically like a house over my head ! keep bobbing up and i had to keep pulling it down. eecks ! but it was good. made me feel thin :D teehees. and guess what ?

HUISHUAN LOST HER GLASSES WHILE KAYAKING. yes, i repeat that, HUISHUAN LOST HER GLASSES WHILE KAYAKING. hahaha. so super funny. can imagine it lying at the bottom of the sea now ! hohooo !

charms and i were kinda sick of kayaking, so we just plonked the kayak on the shore and swam in the sea ! :D bobbing up and down. teehees. the 8 of us, 4kayaks all together in a straight row, held hands and just lay down there, tanning & chatting. it was so relaxiiiing :] we even had like a kayak race ?! hahaha. and charms&my kayak and jamie&jess's kayak smashed into the rocks ! hahaha. didnt know how to control, couldnt stop in time. luckily the kayak didnt like smash to pieces and we didnt drown. HOORAY :D

after kayaking, we took the choochootrain back ! whoosh. wanted to wave at and tempt the guys while we were sitting on the tram kkay ! but so sad nobody saw us :( hahaha.

breaked for a while, eating and pigging out. then it's back to the sea ! :D we were like innocently building our sandcastle ? and then the guys came splashing water at us ? hahaha ! and when i went to take water for our sandcastle, johanan winked at me to splash joel with the water cos that pokpokhead didnt wna go into the water.

BOOOSH. just dumped the whole bucket of water on him and got like a round of splashing back in return ! hahaha. and i threw eunice into the sea ! :D goooosh. she came back and went to drag me into the sea. and i really mean DRAG. like my bum was creating friction against the floor kinda dragging ? GOsh. ouchies !

soon, more victims were thrown in too, and all of us just lazed arnd in the water, crapping and stuffies. nicenice :] then i dont know what happened but suddenly joel was being burried ?! HAHAHA. with a mermaid tail ? Lol ! shaokai even went to stick some cone-shaped thingy at you-know-where. SO FUNNY. and i told daryl to build nanapokks for joel. HAHA. my sexxy mama in bikini ! whooooots ! how can my mama be sexier than me ? gosh. so zi-bei kkay ! hahaha.

after that, we all went to shower and stuff and got changed. went home with chamsie, john and huishuan. met daddie and mummie at habourfront centre. got kinda cheesed off at them. kept giving me the wrong instructions on where to meet them them come and scold me :( whoosh. I BOUGHT A NEW CAMERA :D gona take lotsa pictures tmrw since we didnt take any today :(

the guy who helped us with the camera info was SO CUTE. *screams. he got joel's eyes, and sly's smmile ! omggomgomg !!! he was so nice ! carrying arnd that VCD player cum radio cum cd player cum tape player and blahblahblah arnd the whole shop while we looked fm one item to another ! and he even helped us carry it when we purchased it ! gosh. okay, i think im delusionised from all that sun. GAH. shopped arnd, then went home.

IM SO RED RED RED LIKE A LOBSTER OKAY. rawrr. charmsie keeps telling me i was red, but i didnt know i was THAT red till i looked at myself in the mirror. sorta freaked out ?! okay, i DID freak out. i looked crapped ! my eyes were reeeed tooo ! cos maybe the contacts were dry and the saltwater was stinging. gahh. i praypraypray my face wont peel tmrw ! hahaha. OH, and can anyone tell me, why is my hands all red except my KNUCKLES ?!

MY SEXXY MUMMIE IN BIKINI. whooots ! *hooks fingers :] i'll be nice from today onwards okay ? shall ZIP abt anything abt you. hahaha. yaye ! and you too kkay ! ZIP abt anything abt me. okay, what crap was that. anyhows, ICECREAM PLEASE x)

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pooofs. the damage is even worse than thought ! my face is peeling oh-so-soon. had to put moisturizer. and i couldnt bathe properly la. scrub, ouch, scrub, ouch, scrub, OUCH. the shape of my t-shirt can even be seen la. and the area outside the t-shirt is like REDREDRED. goodness. May God Bless Me !

OH, and did i mention ? i got like this deeeeeep cut on my toe which bled like nobodies business this afternoon, dont-know-how-many scratches on my hands, and a BIGBIGBIG, okay la, it's not big but, PAINPAINPAIN wound on my elbow ! :( faints- i jus love fainting these few days :D

2005-06-10T07:32:00.000-07:00

Why do I love you
Don't even want to
Why do I love you like I do
Like I always do
You should've told me
Why did you have to be untrue
Why do I love you like I do

2005-06-10T03:57:00.000-07:00

IM.
SO.
EXCITED.
FOR.
TMR !!!

im gona build like huuuge sandcastles ! :D and swiiim with the dolphins ! and take cable cars. and swimswimswim in the blue waters ! the very first beach im going to that has realllly bluueee water ! OH, and we'll find victims to bury in the sand. then i'll pester some one to buy me icecream. then i'll tan till i become an ahbunehneh. and finally, take lotsa lotsa lotsa pictures ! WHOOOO. i. just. cant. wait ! gosh. i sound like ive never been to a beach before but, not my fault ! all the beaches i went to are polluted like craaaap ! siloso beach is nice and clean and BLUE ! :D ohmyohmyohmy. and i havent even studied ! im so deaded ! like i'll be going out on sat and sun, then wed-sat church camp, then sun out again, then next week it's the sleepover with my beloved TONGERS. OHCRAP. im getting streeeesseddddd. or rather, im already stressed !!! i need to catch up with what ive missed out the past few months. plus my hmwk, and if possible, revise ?! may the good Lord be with me, amen ! RAWR. i dont wna end up in the IMH with my crazy darls there pls ! hohohoo. Oh, and did i mention, EMELINE'S BACK ! HIPHIPHOOOOORAYYYY !!!! ohyeah, psst niki. all the best for tmwr ya ? run towards the finishing line with all that youve got, just imagine me standing there. x) i'll be ~~laughing~~ cheering you on under the gorgeous sun, on the beautiful beach, while you run under the sweltering sun, on the smelly horse poo. HAHAHA. i'll see your tootsie face on sunday ya ? :] and remember, RUN TOWARDS ME :D and ps, whatever you do, dont faint ;] i love you !

2005-06-09T00:29:00.000-07:00

went out with my dear wifey ! :] we went to buy like this set with all the spades and buckets and the cute sandcastle thingalings. ohman ! got like the watering can and some windmill too ! hahaha ! i cant wait to use it la ! it was so cheap somemore =D
im so frigging excited for sat pls !
okayokay. so we went walking arnd. bought some stuffies, then went to take neos =D whoolala. my wifey is so mad pls. we went to rent those bunny ears thinggy and some fairy wand ?! wth. damn funny ! and i blew like 15bucks in such a short time :( ohshittyboomboom. i'll be so broke on sat ! gahhh. i still wna take the cable cars and ride with the dolphins and eat icecream ! ohohoh ! i still hafta buy a bikini for joel to wear ! rawrrr.
RACHEL ! PRISCILLA ! YOU PIGGOS ! get your butts back in singapore la ! im missing you two MOUNTAINloads :(

2005-06-09T00:05:00.000-07:00

on special demand, my cremated blog, as said by mingxiu, is back ! but im too lazy to get all that aboutme or linkages or whatever thingalings back on. OOPS. hahaha.